I have always been in a long-distance relationship. Everything always happens to be a long-distance relationship. I feel like I've been cursed with long-distance dating lol. At first, I feel like I could do this and it's not such a big deal. But it's getting harder and my emotional state could not handle such long-distance dating anymore. My life feels like getting harder and I don't think I could keep up with my life anymore. My life was miserable and stressing out, all I could do is only cried out loud and wasted my time why my life went like this. I feel like my life is turning upside down

I failed in life, love, friends, work, and even losing a place to be myself

I don't think I will mentally stable again if I'm still breathing in this dark zone

So I left my comfort zone, learn something new again, make a new point of view that it's okay to fail on something that I can't handle anymore

Loving myself is the hardest thing that I could do, I keep blaming myself whenever something gets wrong and I forgot how to make peace with myself. I tried to fix myself, trying to be more respectful with myself

It's been a year since I've been living in Jakarta. I think my life is changing little by little. I feel like I have a new family and also I've got a person who's taking care of me really well

For people who really trust me well enough and wanted me to be happy
I wanna try to make peace with myself
Even if I have lots of people that hate me, Myself is the hardest enemy that I should overcome