Traveler in a Suitcase!

I wanna stay
I wanna be in your life
listen to your voice
Is the best thing that I love


If I have one thing to do
is to be with you
don't change your mind about me
I don't wanna lose you

Hear the moon saying how dazzling you were
Let me sleep in your arms
and wait for the sweet dreams
You're my dream catcher

Let me stay

Mom has been leaving her child

Leaving him in sorrow

No one could understand

Why he was alone

You are nocuous

 Hi Hi

Ini bakal jadi pertama kalinya ditahun ini aku bakal review sesuatu mengenai barang yg aku beli (DENGAN BAHASA INDONESIA!!!)

Jadi disaat pandemi ini rasanya tangan ini gatel banget buat membeli banyak barang, and I was spending TOO MUCH money this year *nangis*

Last month aku baru saja membeli cukup banyak Barang dari Joyseus, belinya disini dan I bought a lot

Hopefully, this review Dapat membuat kalian terbantu, let's try

Painted in the mirror

Those happy days

was it a dream

was it my only imagination

it does not look real anymore

There are times when you're truly loving someone, you will always try your best for their happiness. Whenever the relationship will not going well or you can't be together for several reasons, you'll ask and beg that they will always be happy.

It's actually unfair and devastating. How could you see them, someone that you love, get into a relationship that is not you?

I can't lose him, I really want him, I wanted to be the one who's coming to him whenever he got sad. I wanted to be the one who's taking care of him. I wanted to be the one who's 24 hours besides him. I wanted to be his happy ending story. I know I can't.

I can't be that girl.


I'm quite a fool for love, I always am that person who loves too hard and keep falling for it.
I can't bear any future seeing him with his girlfriend. I can't bear those feelings.

Past is hurtful

even when I walk one step further

every I peeked on my back

it hurts greatly

I don't wanna let my tears fall

because when it happens, I will go cray

it looks dazzling

 I keep Walking

moving and try to find my home

I have reached lots of places that I've never thought

places where I have received lots of sorrow

and also temporary happiness 

We were living in a different life since day one

Why 

Don't you dare tell me that you love me

I thought i'm gonna write about another dark feelings

But need to be stopped for today because today is quite special!

I could hear BTS newest song in English

I wish I could hate you

It hurts

I'm sorry

It was a curse

you are perfect to me

Don't you dare say you love me

it has the expiration

You want me, but you can't take the risk

When was the last time I feel this low?
When was the last time I feel scared?
When was the last time I cried?
When was the last time I feel this devastated?

I wish it was a long time ago
I feel like I can't breathe
My brains seem like dying
All of the good things, it felt like disappearing
and I could only remember the bad things

Can't sleep, cause it will lead you to nightmares
Can't talk, cause it will leading you to get judged
At this moment I'm just wishing I could forget and move on

No more drama in my brain
I've had enough
I'm scared of you, won't you just go away?
Wishing to lose you, but yet you will come back again


I know I will never lose you
you are like a soulmate but in a bad way
my brain is bleeding inside and no one could see

But despite feeling like this, I know something is changing
All this time I finally know lots of things

Knowing that I'm not alone
Knowing that there's still someone who accepts me as I am
Knowing that you are not always wrong
Knowing that loving myself is the answer

I might be weak today, but not tomorrow and not in the future
When I feel this weak, I should believe that I am fine and I don't have to be afraid anymore
My life is changing into good times
and I should not ruin it

we're different
you're pure
I'm a disaster
whenever we walk, they will tell who's the monster

When I keep thinking about the past, I know I'm still regretting what I did in the past. I feel restless, the memories are like a movie that keeps representing in my mind. My past was great but also put me into despair. I wish I could only remember good memories and burns the bad ones. I wish this does not affect the present me.

But no, my memories were too strong and it truly affected me in the present



I keep telling myself, I'm learning from my past. Sometimes my past was affecting my mental issues. All I can do is only stop thinking until it passes by

The tears falling
and you never know
I'm getting tired day by day
and you're still far away
I'm getting restless and despair
But you're never here

If only you know how much I need you
Please come to me
I can't bear the tears that keep falling out
I don't know how to find the light in my heart
But I know only you can heal the darkness in my heart

Nobody but you
Nobody but you
come here sooner
please come here sooner

I wish this only a dream
and I wish I could find you when I'm awake
and I wish you'll be there hug me tightly
as the sign of stopping my misery

I really need you here
Nobody but you
Nobody but you
please Come here sooner

I know you can't sleep at night
You're telling me your chest is in pain, can't catch your breath
I don't know how much misery you had
But I just want you to know I'm here

I will not judge you
Don't tell me to leave you alone
Because I won't ever leave
The misery that you have
I might not understand
But I will always be with you

Love, I can't wait to see your smile again
I wish I could take your long-suffering
If only my existence could heal the pain
I want you to know I love you for who you are

Please don't tell me you can't do this
Because it made me devastated and distraught
I only wish you could overcome this
I know you can

Love, you are strong
But you don't know it
If only you could hear my words
You might understand how great you are

Love, you are born with kindness
You're the best that I ever know
I love you and I won't ever be leaving you

I will not judge you
Don't tell me to leave you alone
Because I won't ever leave
The misery that you have
I might not understand
But I will always be with you

Babe