Day 1
3:27 AMI met a city that refuses to recognize.
It speaks in engines and humidity,
assigns me a room with no reflective surfaces,
files it under mercy.
I met a man who keeps time without instruments.
He doesn’t measure me, he measures quiet.
He asks for nothing, which is almost punitive.
Kindness is an unlocked door; I stand in the threshold and do not cross.
We negotiated a procedure:
I will appear intact if no one knocks.
He will ignore the manifest unless it leaks.
We sealed it with coffee, not signatures.
I did not run. I executed an evacuation.
Maps burn cleaner than memories.
Airports bless the ordinary.
Boarding passes, numbered exits, a seat that doesn’t ask for history.
I lost Tokyo by being porcelain.
Catalogued, breakable, praised.
Jakarta is a drawer that won’t shut.
Perfect. I match.
Lately the sky has been suspiciously gentle.
A soft blue that reads like foreshadow.
Weather loves omen.
So do I.
He smiles like someone who has already met a ghost
and declined the chase.
When I go silent, he does not perform rescue.
He steadies the air. The body relearns the algorithm for breath.
No declarations. No exhibits.
Just a door that doesn’t lock,
a cup parked within reach,
a chair taken beside mine without ceremony.
Am I fixed? No.
Operational? Mostly.
Today I am not auditioning.
He is not directing.
This is new.
This is statistically unsafe.
This is also the opening line of a calendar
I have not agreed to and keep reading anyway.
For now, I let the sky stay soft.
For now, I allow him in my periphery.
If peace is a prelude, I’ll listen from the edge.
If kindness is a trap, I’ll name the teeth later.
This is not a love poem.
This is day one.
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