it's not the beer or smoke that make me feel this calm

it was perfect for me to think more about myself, taken care by someone was wonderful

A person told me,
you need a person who can be a teacher who taught you lots of things
a person who can treats you well as a princess, giving you a care
a person who can be a father or a mother that protecting you
a person who can be your friend, listening to your problems and sharing together

I wanna believe that


October 9, 2019

It is me again, get time to write my feelings

I called lots of friends, and I heard lots of things


I heard lots of voices, and I keep observing


I was enjoying them and I can't believe I am comparing their own personality to each other

and I got silent


why do I comparing them? was it because I am comparing which person who's good enough to chat?

and I keep thinking thinking thinking


This is not why I called them


I wanna know them


not because I need a person to talk



why my mind change so easily? do I judge people?




Exhaled lots of thoughts, and then I talk with them again



"Good to hear you're doing good"

Ikkel