You wanted the glow, not the voltage.
A smile without the current.
You keep calling yourself fragile and then ask for storms.
I learned the forecast. I stood very still.
When was the last time the floor tilted.
When was the last time the glass hummed.
When was the last time the lungs filed a complaint.
When was the last time the lights forgot my name.
I wish it lived far back in the archive.
Today, the air miscalculates.
My head drafts an exit memo.
Good things dim like screensavers;
the rest stays pinned.
Sleep is a hallway with motion sensors,
step once and alarms.
Speech is a form to be filed,
every answer invites an audit.
So I practice forgetting
like it’s a second language.
No more theater in the skull.
Unsubscribe from storms.
I tell the shadow at the door:
wrong address.
It doesn’t leave.
Apparently it has a key I never issued.
It waits like a stray with my handwriting.
We are poorly matched soulmates:
it drinks my air; I set out clean bowls.
Inside, something red writes without ink.
Even so, something recalibrates.
I am not the only light on this street.
Not every hand is a ledger.
Little storm, you are not always wrong.
The answer I kept outsourcing circles back with my face.
Weak is a weather report, not a name.
Today is a low tide, not a prophecy.
Good days are queueing by the door.
I will not cancel them.
I keep my face on silent mode.
Yours ships with prayer hands.
When we pass, the streetlights vote.
Guess who glitches, who gets called a storm.
I file feelings like invoices.
You comp the room and call it mercy.
When the scaffolding drops, the crowd points at the one
already carrying the warnings.
You’re pure the way snow is, until a tire finds it.
I’m a stair without railings, use at your own risk.
Together we make headlines that say “incident,”
but the photo only prints my shadow.
We are the same in the places no one knows:
hairline glass, soft alarms, the old animal that hates empty bowls.
We are different in public:
you do velvet, I do truth.
I told you not to touch the red wire.
You touched it and practiced innocence.
I learned to hold the current without blinking
so the room could go on pretending the lights weren’t mine.
Call me the problem; it paints faster.
You keep “gentle,” I keep “warning.”
We both crack. Only one of us gets labeled the hammer.
You swindle with a choir in the background.
I refuse the ribbon and become the bruise.
When I fell, you logged surprise like a souvenir.
Tell me again you needed me.
You only needed an exit that applauds.
If a culprit must be chosen, pick the one who doesn’t beg.
Fine. Take the halo. Keep the sound off.
I’ll keep the sirens in my mouth.
We both know who paid in body.
We both know who got a refund.
My chest keeps the ground on a leash.
Wings file complaints; gravity signs them.
Protocol says: drop ballast.
Experience says: ballast bites.
Crowds knock like loose shutters.
I keep the face that passes trial.
They test for turbulence anyway,
then ask why I don’t lift.
The math stays the same:
heavy heart, low ceiling.
The frame is aircraft-grade,
the engine isn’t.
Why am I notarizing strangers’ weather
when no one co-signs mine?
Why do I tape my mouth closed
while their knives practice public speaking?
Numb isn’t mercy; it’s a switch.
Scars don’t ping the dashboard.
The fuselage just lists a little,
and I learn a new angle to stand.
So: drop ballast, they say.
But ballast remembers its owner.
Release is another word for teeth,
and I’ve already paid the landing fee.
When I keep thinking about the past, I know I'm still regretting what I did in the past. I feel restless, the memories are like a movie that keeps representing in my mind. My past was great but also put me into despair. I wish I could only remember good memories and burns the bad ones. I wish this does not affect the present me.
But no, my memories were too strong and it truly affected me in the present
I keep telling myself, I'm learning from my past. Sometimes my past was affecting my mental issues. All I can do is only stop thinking until it passes by
But no, my memories were too strong and it truly affected me in the present
I keep telling myself, I'm learning from my past. Sometimes my past was affecting my mental issues. All I can do is only stop thinking until it passes by
The tears falling
and you never know
I'm getting tired day by day
and you're still far away
I'm getting restless and despair
But you're never here
If only you know how much I need you
Please come to me
I can't bear the tears that keep falling out
I don't know how to find the light in my heart
But I know only you can heal the darkness in my heart
Nobody but you
Nobody but you
come here sooner
please come here sooner
I wish this only a dream
and I wish I could find you when I'm awake
and I wish you'll be there hug me tightly
as the sign of stopping my misery
I really need you here
Nobody but you
Nobody but you
please Come here sooner
and you never know
I'm getting tired day by day
and you're still far away
I'm getting restless and despair
But you're never here
If only you know how much I need you
Please come to me
I can't bear the tears that keep falling out
I don't know how to find the light in my heart
But I know only you can heal the darkness in my heart
Nobody but you
Nobody but you
come here sooner
please come here sooner
I wish this only a dream
and I wish I could find you when I'm awake
and I wish you'll be there hug me tightly
as the sign of stopping my misery
I really need you here
Nobody but you
Nobody but you
please Come here sooner
I know you can't sleep at night
You're telling me your chest is in pain, can't catch your breath
I don't know how much misery you had
But I just want you to know I'm here
I will not judge you
Don't tell me to leave you alone
Because I won't ever leave
The misery that you have
I might not understand
But I will always be with you
Love, I can't wait to see your smile again
I wish I could take your long-suffering
If only my existence could heal the pain
I want you to know I love you for who you are
Please don't tell me you can't do this
Because it made me devastated and distraught
I only wish you could overcome this
I know you can
Love, you are strong
But you don't know it
If only you could hear my words
You might understand how great you are
Love, you are born with kindness
You're the best that I ever know
I love you and I won't ever be leaving you
I will not judge you
Don't tell me to leave you alone
Because I won't ever leave
The misery that you have
I might not understand
But I will always be with you
You're telling me your chest is in pain, can't catch your breath
I don't know how much misery you had
But I just want you to know I'm here
I will not judge you
Don't tell me to leave you alone
Because I won't ever leave
The misery that you have
I might not understand
But I will always be with you
Love, I can't wait to see your smile again
I wish I could take your long-suffering
If only my existence could heal the pain
I want you to know I love you for who you are
Please don't tell me you can't do this
Because it made me devastated and distraught
I only wish you could overcome this
I know you can
Love, you are strong
But you don't know it
If only you could hear my words
You might understand how great you are
Love, you are born with kindness
You're the best that I ever know
I love you and I won't ever be leaving you
I will not judge you
Don't tell me to leave you alone
Because I won't ever leave
The misery that you have
I might not understand
But I will always be with you
No one could make my day feels bright as you do
Your smile made my heart feeling warm
Your big hand so gentle, make me fall asleep in your hug
Babe
I might not perfect, and dull
I might be frail, disappointing you
But you never sighing on me
Babe
Your presence makes me alive
I never wanted to die anymore
I just wanna be here beside you and seeing your face
Babe
I don't want anything else
I just want you
and I am hoping you want me back
Babe
You're getting far now
I can't reach you
why were you walking so fast?
Babe
I love you
and I really do
why did fate want to tear us apart?
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