And i'm stuck at home, again.
4:27 AMI’ve been horizontal for days.
Temperature: drama.
Cough: percussive.
Outside: Bali.
Inside: me vs. deadlines
(spoiler: Exam lifting the trophy).
And yet, somewhere between fever and final exam prep: I got to witness a Balinese ceremony called “mukur.”
I’m new here, so I’m writing this as a soft, respectful first-timer with Googleable curiosity and a very humble brain.
What I think “mukur” is (beginner’s lens)
A community ceremony to honor and guide the souls of those who’ve passed.
Done with devotion, offerings, music, and a choreography of family roles. It’s complex, meaningful, and (to me) deeply moving. Costs can be significant; families often coordinate and combine ceremonies so everyone can participate with dignity and support.
If you’re Balinese and I’m missing nuance, please teach me: I’m here to learn, not to pretend I’m an expert.
Atmosphere check: crowded, musical, alive
Crowd energy: high. Think “everyone’s auntie is here and she brought purpose.”
Soundtrack: gamelan, layered like a heartbeat you can stand inside.
Color: white kebaya glowing everywhere; marigold and canang sari; the sky trying its best not to cry.
Dress code (aka: my transformation arc)
I wore a white kebaya and tried to look composed. No makeup because my face said “today we are a minimalist.” Somehow it worked: clean lines, respectful tones, and the relief of blending in instead of sticking out like a tourist-shaped exclamation point.
The money piece people don’t talk about
Ceremonies are expensive: from offerings to logistics, so pooling resources matters. I’d heard some families plan for months (even years), then hold ceremonies together.
The result feels communal: shared cost, shared labor, shared love.
Sick girl, soft heart (intermission)
Body: “You’re ill.”
Brain: “Finals Monday.”
Me: i'll pretend to look fine.
If you’re new and get invited (be a good guest)
Ask what’s appropriate to wear. White kebaya/sarong for women is common; modest, tidy, respectful.
Observe first, help when guided. There’s a rhythm, follow it.
No intrusive photos. People > content. Always ask.
Why it stayed with me
Grief here isn’t hidden; it’s held. The ceremony felt like a bridge: the living on one side, memory on the other, music in the middle. As someone who jokes a lot to avoid crying, I stood there quiet for once, listening to a language older than my coping mechanisms.
Current status report
Health: 63% loading…
Finals: Monday. Panic calendar says “today.”
Holiday craving: on, aggressively.
Hope: also on.
If I disappear, I’m probably under a blanket, conjugating verbs, sipping warm tea, and trying to keep my heart as steady as a gamelan beat.
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