I feel like I'm not as good as a person, I'm dull and not pretty. I'm fat and ugly, everything that I feel is just too horrible.

I know it just what I think, I keep suggesting to myself it's not right. I am who I am, not perfect but real. 

But there will be ups and downs, but this year I feel like my negativity is too extreme

and I wish I could change it

people will say, you're fine you're not ugly

people will say you're weird to keep acting like this

I know it's wrong, but why I can not change it? If I could change it, will I be a better person?